Well, I can confirm that Edinburgh is indeed All That – all the yarn, all the people, all the connections. All the overwhelm. It was wonderful but exhausting, and since I started out pre-exhausted, I came home with the nagging feeling that I really hadn’t made the most of it. Maybe I “should” be tanked up with inspiration and raring to go, but you know? I still only have 24 hours in the day, and most of them are already spoken for.
I’m telling you this because Nadia wrote
about much the same problem, and I know we’re not the only ones to struggle with that sense of letting ourselves down when we’re not buzzing with creative energy. So this is me putting it out there. Sometimes that’s just not where you’re at. And that’s ok. Creativity doesn’t need you to be On all the time, and “inspiration” is kind of bullshit, frankly. (Don’t get me started.) Sometimes you need to be still. Sometimes you need to just keep doing the work. You’ll figure it out.