My phone is off for repairs, and it’s agony. I literally can’t cope without a smartphone these days, not because I’m addicted to social media (though, yes), but because WhatsApp is the key to organising my life and my kids’ lives, and I don’t even know who’s going to be texting me. So I bought a cheap phone to use in the meanwhile, and it’s a piece of crap that needs repairs itself. The whole thing could be viewed as a lesson in my dependence on technology and how I need to be more creative in finding solutions, but frankly, who has the energy?
Not me, not while I have a cold and a weight on my mind that stems from various pressing uncertainties. Uncertainty is the hardest thing for me to deal with. I can cope with bad news, I can cope with big change, but I do not deal well with uncertainty, and this has been going on for months. So every new thing that comes up – the phone problems; the head cold – feels, quite illogically, like a new outcropping of the same fundamental Wrongness that is all this uncertainty. I can’t concentrate on anything. My productivity is in pieces. Can somebody please just let me know when it’s all over? I’ll be hiding under the duvet. I have a couple of things to keep you busy meanwhile.