Good question. I’ve not gone anywhere, I just haven’t been doing anything much. Picture me as a video game character with status bar showing dangerously low life. Friends, I haven’t even been knitting. 😱
You know people talk about fallow periods? The idea that you can’t produce all the time; sometimes you need to stay quiet and nurture yourself, and wait for the mojo to return. I’m slightly uncomfortable with this imagery because it still emphasizes production as the end goal (why is it so hard to embrace rest for its own sake?) but let’s go with it.
One thing often recommended for these times is seeking out other forms of creativity. While I haven’t had much energy for, well, anything, I have started tinkering around on the piano (well, keyboard) for the first time since high school. My 6yo is taking keyboard lessons and I found that while supervising his practice, I was really itching to take my turn. So I am. Now, I’m not actually a very musical person. I’m playing at maybe Grade 2 level (never made it past Grade 4), and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to play by ear; but there’s something about the physicality of piano, the work of picking out the notes and training my fingers to remember what I want them to do, that I find amazingly soothing. And the pretty tunes that come out are just a nice bit of positive feedback.
I am someone who finds it really hard to do something just because. I always want to know what it’s good for. I guess that’s a large part of why knitting is my craft of choice: it’s so obviously useful. But doing something just for me, for absolutely no discernible purpose, is really nice too. I highly recommend this.
Anyway, so that’s why I’ve been so quiet. I’ve also been a bit busy with moving house. We’re actual homeowners for the first time in two decades, which is pretty amazing. And there will be CATS. I. Cannot. Wait.