"Be the most wonderful expression of you that you're capable of." ~Marianne Williamson

The weirdness of last week continued on into this week.  And I had to deal with that. But in the midst of everything, I had to get some tests done on Wednesday because a few months ago, I started feeling a lump in my upper right chest area.  I told my doctor about it in December when I went in for my physical and while she said it was probably nothing to worry about, she wanted me to get an ultrasound to be sure.

I was good for the whole month and tried not to worry, praying for the best.  But the closer the day came to get tested, I have to admit I was getting scared.  Sitting in the waiting room that day after being checked in, all I could do was pray that I would be OK.  Nothing else was on my mind. In that moment, nothing else mattered.

The nurse came to get me and told me that the doctor also wanted to give me a mammogram.  Mind you, I’ve never had one. I’ve only heard stories.  All I could think in that moment was, “This is serious.  I’m getting a mammogram.  Is it going to hurt?”  But the nurse was amazing. She talked me through everything and was really comforting.  She said they wanted to do the mammogram to be safe in case the ultrasound showed some things they need to further investigate.

After that, it was ultrasound time.  Different nurse but she was also very calming and comforting.  She asked me to point out where I felt the lump and then began the ultrasound procedure.  The Doctor came in and did the same thing.  So yep, I had two ultrasounds.  After all was said and done, the Doctor says, “Yep I feel what you feel but looking at the ultrasound and the mammogram, we see nothing abnormal, nothing to worry about.” He told me to keep an eye on it and follow up with my doctor if there were any changes but I was OK.  

I was OK.  I was OK. Those three words allowed me to let out a breath I didn’t know I was holding since the first day I felt the lump. Those three words re-energized me in a way that I didn’t know was possible.  I felt powerful.  I felt like I could take on the world.  I felt like the crap that had me so angry earlier in the week didn’t matter at all.  Suck it weirdness.  Suck it anger.  I was OK. I was healthy.  A weight had been lifted and I felt like I could do anything.  

On to the picks for the week!