The weirdness of last week continued on into this week.Ā And I had to deal with that. But in the midst of everything, I had to get some tests done on Wednesday because a few months ago, I started feeling a lump in my upper right chest area.Ā I told my doctor about it in December when I went in for my physical and while she said it was probably nothing to worry about, she wanted me to get an ultrasound to be sure.
I was good for the whole month and tried not to worry, praying for the best.Ā But the closer the day came to get tested, I have to admit I was getting scared.Ā Sitting in the waiting room that day after being checked in, all I could do was pray that I would be OK.Ā Nothing else was on my mind. In that moment, nothing else mattered.
The nurseĀ came to get meĀ andĀ told me that the doctorĀ also wantedĀ to give me a mammogram.Ā Mind you, Iāve never had one. Iāve only heard stories.Ā All I could think in that moment was, āThis is serious.Ā Iām getting a mammogram.Ā Is it going to hurt?āĀ But the nurse was amazing. SheĀ talked me through everything andĀ was reallyĀ comforting.Ā She said they wanted to do the mammogram toĀ be safeĀ in caseĀ the ultrasoundĀ showed some things they need to further investigate.
After that, it was ultrasound time.Ā Different nurse but she was also very calming and comforting.Ā She asked me to point out where I felt the lump and thenĀ began the ultrasound procedure.Ā The Doctor came in andĀ did the same thing.Ā So yep, I hadĀ twoĀ ultrasounds.Ā After all was said and done, the Doctor says, āYep I feel what you feelĀ butĀ looking at the ultrasound and the mammogram, we see nothing abnormal, nothing to worry about.ā He told me to keep an eye on it and follow up with my doctor if there were any changes butĀ I was OK.Ā Ā
I was OK.Ā I was OK. Those three words allowed me to let out a breath I didnāt know I was holding since the first day I felt the lump. Those three words re-energized me in a way that I didnāt know was possible.Ā I felt powerful.Ā I felt like I could take on the world.Ā I felt like the crap that had me so angry earlier in the week didnāt matter at all.Ā Suck it weirdness.Ā Suck it anger.Ā I was OK. I was healthy.Ā A weight had been lifted and I felt like I could do anything.Ā Ā
And YOU can do anything.Ā You are an amazing and intelligent human that has so much greatness to share with the world.Ā Remember that. Lean into that.Ā Because you have more power than you think.Ā xoxo
On to the picks for the week!