I’m my own worst boss. I drive myself harder than anyone else. I’ve done this for a long time. I’m conscious of trying to ease back the throttle.
I’ve eased back at times. I know it’s the right thing to do. Yet I can’t do it regularly, yet.
I’ve found myself less successful at this the more I enjoy my work. If I don’t like my work and the people I’m working with, it’s easier to do what I have to do, then put it aside.
Fortunately, I enjoy my most work now. I also enjoy the people I’m doing the work with these days (most of them, at least!). At the same time, this makes it harder for me to disconnect. Not disconnecting leads toward a healthy imbalance.
It’s a reminder that Just Rolling with It’s a path, not a destination. For example, I used to think that “If I can just enjoy my work, everything will be better and easier.”
Yes, lots has improved. Some things have become easier too. For this I feel grateful.
Yet new challenges arise. JRWI’s teaching me that this will probably always be the case. Establishing a healthy balance is a rolling process. It’s not a set-it-once-and-forget-it kind of thing.
Learning this feels hopeful.
Otherwise this entire journey could feel like a hopeless one. For example, “OK, I got THERE, FINALLY. Oh, WAIT. THERE’s not perfect either…why did I bother…” is one way to look at it.
Fortunately I’ve learned that’s not a healthy way for me to view things.
For now, I’m going to be a better boss to myself. It’s almost 8AM on Sunday.
Our family’s going to our first Knicks game this afternoon. I’m going to try and disconnect from now until Monday morning.
That means leaving this issue a bit half-formed in my mind. I guess my boss will just have to live with that for now 😊
How about you? How do you strike a healthy inner balance?
Let me know by responding directly to this email.
Catch you next week,