How often do you hit the reset button?
After I started JRWI, I feel like I would hit the reset button a lot. Before JRWI I barely ever hit it.
The shaky feeling I wrote about last week
got me thinking about resetting again. I’m starting to realize a reason I’m feeling shaky is because I’m starting to try and make things solid again.
By this I mean, as things started to feel pretty good, I began grasping for them. I started trying to solidify them, in the hope the “good” wouldn’t change.
As a result, I started feeling stuck again. My tension started rising a lot. Sleep started taking a hit, too.
I started getting stuck on the activities and habits I thought were serving me well. While I believe many still do and will continue to do so, the rigidity I was structuring to preserve them started feeling counter-productive.
I’m pretty good at developing and sticking to routines. Not getting too strict with them is my challenge. I realize now that I’m getting too strict with them.
Some of the shakiness may be coming from an urge to try and resist change that needs to happen. Although I was trying to soften into, rather than harden to the changes, I still found myself holding on to my routine for dear life.
This became clearer to me over the weekend. I went to my first true Ayurvedic consultation with a very skilled practitioner
. As we talked, I realized some of my longest held beliefs may not be serving me well.
For example, the bulletproof coffee I’ve been drinking since JRWI started may be doing me more harm than good. So I started cutting it out as of yesterday. The consultation shook up a few other of my long-held beliefs.
So I feel like I’m hitting the reset button again. It feels frightening, uncomfortable, hopeful and liberating.
Let’s see how it goes 😅
How about you? When’s the last time you hit the reset button and why did you do it?
Or maybe you’re feeling like you should, yet find yourself hesitating?
Let me know by responding directly to this email.