It’s Sunday morning and I’m locked-in. I have a little time to catch-up on some things. This newsletter’s one of them.
Yesterday I disconnected with a bike ride and family dinner. I convinced myself it’s OK to reconnect this morning. The latter’s debatable 😬
As I result, I’m racing to finish a few things. Racing against the clock, trying not to hit a wall…
Something I discovered during therapy is my ability to focus intensely. I first discovered this ability by describing how sometimes the only thing I could see was the cell in the spreadsheet I was working on.
Hearing myself say this, I realized this ability’s downside. When I lock-in and focus intensely, I get tunnel vision. This causes me to turn inside myself and disconnect.
I’ve learned how unhealthy disconnection is. I feel more stressed and anxious when I disconnect. I start to feel tension in my eyes, temples, then head. I’m starting to feel this now, as I write it.
Even looking up from the computer feels hard during these moments. This compounds the effect.
I know how beneficial the simple act of standing up is. Walking away from my computer is even more beneficial. Going to walk outside is even more beneficial that that.
So that’s what I’m going to do. Right after I update the photo and music 😅
Do you experience this tunnel vision at times? Or, maybe not being able to focus is something you struggle with.
Either way, when do you become aware of it happening? How do you work with it?
Let me know by responding directly to this email.
May your weekend be a restful and restorative one.
Catch you next week,