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Just Rolling with It

June 24 · Issue #99 · View online
Pursuing our dreams, not theirs.

Pursue our individual dreams, not the dreams of others. Learn to hear our inner voice to guide us while filtering out the noise of modern society’s dream pushers.

Hi,
Actually it was, “There’s no way I can do this the rest of my career.” This is what I told myself about two weeks into my first job after college graduation.
I was living in a suburb of Washington, DC. That was as close as I could get to living in the city itself. My apartment complex was across from a strip mall. The location itself was a no-man’s land of apartment complexes and strip malls. You needed a car to go anywhere or do anything.
I was getting ready for work. The apartment had neutral carpet colors and inoffensive paint on the walls. This made it easy to rent, I guess.
I remember walking into the closet. That’s when the thought overwhelmed me. I was about to drive 20-25 minutes to my cubicle. The office building was in another soulless area similar to my neighborhood.
Everything was grey and lifeless. There were trees around, yet it felt like a landscaped trick, to momentarily distract from the faux brick building facades, parking lot pavement and grey cement curbs.
My cubicle was small. It was in a single-story office building. From above, if you took off the roof, I imagine the building looked like a sheet of graph paper, defined by cubicles.
The cubicles were made from a pressed wood, dark framing material. The wall frames were dirty, dusty carpet-like burlap. The desk was grey. The computers were an unpleasant cream color at the time.
Wow, writing this evokes the same feeling now that it did then. The feeling was one of hopelessness and despair.
I told myself there was no way I could do this for another 20+ years. Yet I felt trapped. I had no idea how I could find a way NOT to do that for another 20+ years.
Looking back, I think that realization set off a small spark. I think it’s that spark that eventually became Just Rolling with It.
Today that spark manifests a feeling of excitement to ride my bike to my co-working space and get to work. Reflecting back, I almost feel ecstatic. The shift almost feels unreal.
Yet it is real. It did happen. For this I feel grateful.
I share this with the hope it may ignite a similar spark in even one or two readers. Please let me know if it does. If it doesn’t, I’d be interested in learning why too.
Let me know by responding directly to this email.
Catch you next week.
Chris
Semi-Random Thoughts
The JRWI subscriber count dipped below 600 to 598 last week. Even though I’d like to pretend it doesn’t bother me, the dip does feel discouraging. If you’d be kind enough to share this issue on social media or forward it to a friend, to help spread the word and help counter what feels like a slow decay, I’d greatly appreciate it 🙏
Our summary vacation is happening in July. I already find myself negotiating with myself, to see how much actual vacation I’ll allow myself to have. Last year I tried a half-in/half-out approach and vowed I’d never do it again.
This year I find myself telling myself that maybe that’s the way to go again 🙄Hopefully this early awareness helps me fight that urge.
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