This is my 6th issue. 6 weeks ago, when I started this journal I believed that as time goes by, documenting my journey will become easier. Turns out that this is not the case.
Since I decided to commit to this journaling project, one day per week I have to only think about what happened the week before. I observe what I achieved, what I learned and what decisions I took. I observe all the small steps that sometimes I forget to celebrate about.
Observing myself is challenging. I see the naked truth of who I really am. My mistakes, my insecurities, my success, and my progress. Alongside with that, I have to write about all these observations and share them with you. Even if it’s challenging, there is something magical about it. It’s always scary but it’s powerful and reminds me constantly that I shouldn’t hesitate to stay authentic and true to myself.
My main fear at this moment is what I am going to write on weeks with no significant process. I am afraid that you will get bored of my emails because there is no excitement or lesson to read about. I know deep inside me that my fear is useless and I am constantly trying to throw it away.
I know that some weeks will be a complete mess, some others will be boring and some others full of success and excitement. The point is to share what’s happening. To show the behind the scenes, so that you, the people who follow my journey, will be able to see and understand how the journey really feels like. I didn’t start this journal to create excitement. I started it to share the truth. And sometimes the truth can be boring, sad or exciting. Like our everyday lives.