It was Monday. It was the time to write my first e-mail. I looked at my subscribers list and saw “32 subscribers in total”. 32 people waiting to read what happened during my first week. I was feeling uncomfortable. It was the first time I was writing some kind of newsletter. I started the day by doing random tasks pretending I am busy and procrastinating. Some hours passed and one of my favourite topics popped into my head.
The power of vulnerability.
“In order for connection to happen we have to allow ourselves to be really seen. To have the courage to be imperfect, the compassion to be kind to ourselves first, and fully embrace our vulnerability to create connections. What makes us vulnerable, makes us beautiful. Vulnerability is the core of shame and fear, but it is also the birthplace of joy, happiness, creativity, belonging and love.”
“Remember?”, I said to myself. “That’s why you started this email. To allow yourself to be seen. To show the behind the scenes and share the idea that helping and connecting with each other is not about showing how perfect and successful we are.”
This thought gave me all the courage I needed. That’s my purpose. It doesn’t matter if people are going to like it or not. This is who I am and that’s all I can do. My goal is not to look awesome, but original.
I turned on my Mac, I put on my AirPods on and started writing. The more I write the better it feels. Once again, it’s a matter of practice. Everything is hard until you practice enough. Some hours later I was done. It was challenging. I read the email again and again. I was sure there were grammar mistakes in there. I knew my copywriting skills could be improved. I was close to fall into the trap of perfectionism. But I resisted. After a few revisions I decided to hit the “Send” button and let it go. This was all I could do at that point. I closed my Mac and the day was over. I was not going to work on any other tasks. I reserved the full day for this email. I made sure I had enough time to appreciate and experience the process of creating it.