For the last couple of years, pretty much since I got so sick after the last C2E2 I attended, Iāve been battling this weird brain fog. It is so bad at times, I donāt want to get out of bed and I definitely donāt want to do anything. Sometimes, I go down to my office and just⦠sit in front of my desk, doing nothing. We all have mornings like that, yes, but I have been having weeks and even months like that. I have bursts of creativity and productivity, but the fall from those moments has been devastating. I have written about this lack of energy and motivation before, thinking it is just some sort of exhaustion or burnout or malaise or vague disinterest. Iām starting to worry it is more than that, though. The last couple of weeks have been bad in that regard.
So, a couple of days ago, I started drinking an Early Bird Morning Cocktail. Itās full of vitamins and superfoods and dying universes or something. I mix a powder in water in a shaker, put it on my nightstand before bed, then drink it first thing in the morning. The idea is it gives you a big boost to get moving and feel energized.
Iāve only been drinking it for a couple of days, so Iām not ready to give it a full endorsement just yet, but it has definitely helped me get working in the mornings. Iāve never been a big morning coffee drinker, and Iām not drinking anywhere near as many caffeinated beverages as I was, so maybe this is what I need.
A full report next time.
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Iām going to need that energy.
I have so many new projects I want to get to. Tons of prose work, as Iāve been discussing of late. I just want to get back into that realm in a bigger way. I have loads of short stories and novellas and novels in the works right now.
Comic work, too, of course, both new and old. Last week, while standing at my table at Planet Comicon, I looked out across my books and felt a strange sense of⦠dissatisfaction. There are so, so many books Iām proud of, but there are so many others that I didnāt get to finish, didnāt get to finish in the way I wanted, or didnāt get to tell in the way I wanted because of some sort of interference or derailment. No more. Iāve got tales to tell, and Iām going to make it happen.
Role-playing and board games? You know it! The manuscript for my first RPG supplement is written and turned in. Iāve got more to come. Lots more. Some of it pretty epic in scope. Board games? You know the Harrow County game is in the works, but you may not know that JimmyZ and I have been working on a different board game that is pretty close to ready.
Film and TV are also on the slate. Heath Amodio and I have Hustle and Heart Productions, and weāre always working on something new. I have a pilot script Iām writing āon specā at the moment. Iām always pitching and proposing other projects.
I have control of the empire.
I just need to remember that.
And I need to fight like Hell to maintain that control.
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Today, Iāve got a lot on my plate writing-wise.
I am sending off a new comic book proposal. There has been a bit of back-and-forth with my editor on this one, all moving the initial idea in a really cool direction, I think. The final version has to be turned in before tomorrow, and Iām hoping we can get this one across the finish line. Itās a big one and I really love how it has all come together.
Iām also finishing a comic script. Iām behind on it, which I hate, but I should be able to wrap it today so I can focus on finishing other projects Iām behind on throughout the rest of the week.
And I have the aforementioned pilot script that needs to be finished so I can send it off to my co-writer for a polish before we start taking it out!
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As you may remember, a while back I decided to focus a bit on my health and weight loss. There have been ups and downs. So far, Iāve cut down on my sodium intake a great deal. Iām trying to keep up with medication and vitamins. And Iāve been watching what I eat. Maybe not the last week or so, but Iām trying. Iāve lost about 11 pounds. My goal is to lose another 17 pounds. Iād like to do it by mid-June. Thatās a lot of weight in a short amount of time. It likely wonāt happen, but Iām trying to challenge myself a bit. So, starting this week, it is back to a more aggressive diet and exercise routine. Wish me luck!
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Iām pretty sure I havenāt shared the commissions I got in my D&D Monster Manual sketchbook at Planet Comicon. Here are new additions by Shannon Potratz, Chris Schweizer, Jacob Fleming, Scott Drummond, and Ross Taylor. Iām excited to get a few more sketches in the book at upcoming conventions. I may even go ahead and start a second sketchbook, this one based on the Fiend Folio.