If I could only use one word to describe my summer, I would say reflective. These past months, I can’t say that I necessarily worked on a lot of projects or dove deep into a variety of things I knew little about. Instead, I ended up learning a lot about myself and the way that I’ve been approaching my life.
One of the main things I noticed about myself was that I had gotten into a mindset where I was overanalyzing everything I did. I was focusing so much on being intentional about everything I was doing and considering the value of each thing that I was being intentional about. Because I was so inwardly focused, it led to me neglecting my personal relationships and my own mental health, which had consequences in the second half of my summer.
The main problem I had found was that I was focusing on utility and perceived value. I realized that the personal values I was living by weren’t the things I had thought I wanted and that my internal robot was overinflating/devaluing different aspects of my life.
This obsession with looking for meaning and value in the things I did (while valuable), made me paralyzed. I guess I realized that quantifying my life and my actions was exhausting. Overall, I realized that different methods/mindsets of approaching your life can be helpful, but shouldn’t be used in every aspect of your life.
For anyone who wants to do a reflection or is in a reflective mood, I found Elizabeth Filip’s video
incredibly helpful for determining personal values.