Since I was feeling in the mood to ‘let it go’, I caved and finally subscribed to Disney+. Honestly, no regrets on the decision since I love Disney so much and the show selections made me really happy!
Of course I had to binge on the new High School Musical Series. While doing so, I chanced upon this song called ‘Born To Be Brave
’ (which is currently on repeat on my spotify playlist). I really LOVE the lyrics:
‘Cause I was born to be brave, I know who I am inside
And I won’t apologize
Made my mistakes
And they gave me wings to fly
If you like this song, you’ll probably also enjoy these 2 songs (which have exactly the same title with the same sort of message:
’This is Me
‘ - The Greatest Showman (The Greatest Showman Cast)
Listening to these songs just makes me feel really empowered and it really hit home - because really, we need to learn to like and love ourselves as a person before we can be proud of ourselves and develop confidence.
Since speaking to my therapist, I’ve been trying to do a weekly affirmation exercise on 3 things I like about myself. On surface level, it sounds stupid and self-indulgent but it’s personally incredibly difficult for me because I’m really critical of myself, and I can’t think about lots of things I particularly like about myself. Maybe I do, but I’m definitely not used to acknowledging it.
I guess the learning lesson here is: No matter how 'weird’ or ‘weak’ you think you are, learn to leverage your strengths. Love yourself and be unapologetically proud of your unique self, and continue doing what you do. The confidence will naturally come with experience.
It’s not an easy journey, and I’m definitely still trying to work my way through this, to enjoy and learn through the process. Definitely try the exercise and share what you like about yourselves! :)
Other quick life update: The damm otters made another appearance - unfortunately we lost 1 baby fish. This happened while I has having dinner with my family and close friends. One of my helpers was suddenly frantically screaming at the pond area, then it instantly hit me that they were back. I ran out screaming and shouting in the middle of dinner in an attempt to scare them. There were seriously a BIG bunch of 20 of them so I took a few golf club to scare them - and in all honesty, they didn’t seem scared at all.
Thankfully, we managed to eventually chase them all away. This ended with me running out of my house shouting like a maniac waving 3 golf clubs at the otters while they ran away. I had to explain the the very nice man who was walking by why I looked like a crazed woman.
So if anyone tell you otters are cute - let me assure you THEY ARE NOT 😡
Till next week!