For many months I had been ready to pop this “baby” out and cut the umbilical cord. However, as a newcomer to the publishing world, I had to learn to be patient and to practice what I preach: let go of what you cannot control and trust in divine timing. And in my publisher.
This trust in my publisher landed me a five minute Live TV interview at a local San Diego station the day before the official launch. Like many events during COVID, this one was virtual as well, right from my living room. It was nice to do this from my comfy couch, but this meant that I had to make sure that all was under control for those intense five minutes of my life.
The timing appeared to be favorable. It was scheduled on a Thursday, which meant I didn’t have to worry about clamorous trash trucks roaring down my street. I could already picture myself yelling into the mic as I discussed the various ways we can increase our sense of calm and inner peace. Trash day is on Tuesday. Yay.
Nor did I have to worry about lawn mowers and leaf blowers howling outside while explaining the importance of solitude and quiet time for discovering what we as moms truly need or want in our lives. That also happens on Tuesday. Yay again.
The interview was scheduled for 8:10am, which was good as well because it meant that I could get my kids and husband out of the house and off to school and work before then. And, my publisher still had two days to prepare me to face my biggest fear of all: public speaking. Yikes!
While I went through a few rounds of media training for a couple of days, I also had to prep for the book launch on Zoom that Friday afternoon. This meant sending loads of reminders for the upcoming launch through emails, texts, messaging, and posting on social media. Oh, and to encourage the whole world to watch me on live TV. Gulp.
In the meantime, our family room, aka my office, had turned into a storage space. Gift baskets for the raffle drawings adorned the mantle while boxes of books and gift bags covered the hearth. My desk was littered with checklists and Post-it notes.
As the days were counting down, my nervousness was going up. I could barely eat or sleep and needed all the help and support I could get. Launching a book is definitely not a solo enterprise. As soon as I learned about the interview, I asked my husband to take care of dinner for the next few days. I was simply too busy and couldn’t even think about food. The great husband that he is understood, while our kids were happy because they knew their dad would either barbeque or order in. No more broccoli or carrots this week! Yay for them.
Asking for what I needed also meant that my family might not be able to wear their favorite clothes for a few days as the laundry would have to be put on hold for a bit, unless they’d do it themselves. I think some laundry got done, but I have no recollection.
The morning of the interview arrived and I was quite pleased with myself for keeping it all together. Until my husband showed me that the TV station just announced my upcoming interview an hour before I was supposed to go live. Instantly, I was flooded with anxiety. I tried to put everything I learned to calm myself into practice: block breathing, mantras, and visualization. Forget it.
For days I had been praying for a miracle to have some sense of calm come over me before and during the interview. The answer to my prayer came thirty minutes before the interview in the form of a tiny little bottle with a dropper: a homeopathic remedy called Rescue.
I still had some in the house from when my kids were little. At the time it seemed to help them calm down when nothing else that I tried worked. So, I squirted a few droppers full in my mouth and repeated this a couple more times until a sense of calm had taken over. Within minutes, I thought, I’ve got this. Thank you!
I’m sure I took way more of the remedy than recommended, but who cares. I got through it. Without stumbling, without forgetting, without choking, and without trash trucks raging by.
The next day, the virtual book launch went great. It was truly heartwarming as I looked at the many smiling faces of my friends, neighbors and family. It was a wonderful way to end this crazy week of book launching.
Now, how’s that laundry room looking?